Happy New Year 2018

Once again I am in awe of how fast time passes; like sands through the hourglass, so are the ...Days of Our Lives :)

It is 2018.

I have been back in Canada for over seven years. And I'm not sure where my life is now. Really.

What I mean is, of course it is in Canada. It is in Aylmer, Quebec.

But, I seem to be struggling to be ALIVE.

Yes, so that's where I am now, somewhere between animated and actually alive.

I mentioned in previous posts how I've been in a dreadful state of anhedonia.

I mean, I know I love my dog, Lola. But I don't feel it.

I go through the motions in everything - and I think it is because, at my core, I am bored. Possible?

Anyway, no depressing ramblings; Where I am emotionally:

• Anxtious
• Unambitious
• Unfocused
• Unpleasured

A whole lot of vowels disavowing states of being.

But where else am I? Really positive -

• Spiritual
• Hopeful
• Active

So, then. Next post will contain my Resolutions, or rather, Hopes for the New Year!